well, fsck

[chelidon]

So Wednesday I call one of my dearest friends and deep spiritual mentors, and we talk about the increasingly direct relationship between my internal and external landscapes, about symbols and meanings and how more and more, internal symbols, conflicts and processes are not a metaphor, they manifest directly and forcefully in the world of form. As a part of this discussion, I agree that I need to make more space in my life, that my constant busyness is part of what's holding me back from fully engaging with some of my hard personal work, and my movement through into the next stage of what I need to be doing. Last night my extended household gathered to celebrate Mabon/Fall Equinox, and we ceremonially switched over from the light to the dark half of the year (more night than day, etc). The period of time between now and Samhain is when I typically concentrate on what I need to let go of, on pruning and simplifying my life, plowing under that which is no longer needed, and making space for new things to happen.

Today I find out that the major recurring freelance writing gig that currently provides 2/3 of my typical monthly income and which takes up the majority of my time is going away in a week (through no fault of my own). Okay, so I suddenly have a lot more time and space in my life. Dammit.

Sometimes this path drives me nuts. But you just have to laugh.