circus of life
Jul. 19th, 2007 12:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
chelidonApologies to those I owe email to, the last couple of weeks have been a whirlwind, my time for personal email has been very short, and the next few days at least are more of the same. Tonight, off to pick up the incomparable ![[livejournal.com profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/external/lj-userinfo.gif)
marys_daughter, who will be teaching a sure-to-be-amazing class for healers, clergy and priest/esses at Casa Chaos, followed by the first bardic circle in a long time, then a work day with various good folk on Sunday, to start the barn renovation/refit as dorm and meeting space, then an evening with family, loves and friends at The Circus! Then my partner's off to teach at Spiralheart camp, and I'm on full-time daddy duty for a couple of weeks.
Aside from the huge overload of things to do, I have been feeling energetically like the calm still point at the center of the maelstrom over the past few months. I can feel somewhat perversely guilty for not being in crisis. So many dear friends and loved ones seem to be going through major relationship chaos, family injury and deaths, job or financial angst, community strife and just plain hard times. Despite some shakes (including another cancer scare earlier this month, thankfully all good in the end, but once bitten twice shy) and the usual full range of life experiences, I am incredibly grateful to have received the ease I asked for and worked for with all my might earlier this year. It's not that things are easy, but the near-constant huge shocks and massive upheavals have subsided, allowing me to recover my own sense of balance, grace, place and rightness. I am in the right place, at the right time, doing the right things with the right people. I am in right relationship and right livelihood. I am surrounded by love, abundance, beauty, and life. It really is all good.
No, life is not perfect, far from it. There is always work, and Work. There are still good days and bad, hard decisions to be made, sorrows and disappointments, missteps and aggravations. But, for me, here and now, there is clarity, and health, and ease. And optimism, and faith, and happiness, life-force flowing freely and with joy.
And I will not fear saying it out loud. It always seems so much easier to share bad news than good, out of some kind of morbid fear of bringing down misfortune, or perhaps being seen as glossing over the bad things or not showing proper modesty, since we all know life is hard, right?
I refuse to live in a world where I am afraid of ease, afraid of life, afraid of success or abundance or good fortune, or afraid to share good news. If we can talk about hard times, we should be able to freely talk about goodness, too, without fearing it. There is no Karmic Rule that punishes us when we achieve what we say we desire. In fact, quite the opposite. If we unconciously fear success, if we fear happiness, if we fear abundance or feel unworthy of it, it is so much less likely to manifest in our lives.
And when I am in balance, when I am in a place of strength and happiness, I can be a stronger support for those around me, as they have been a support for me in my times of need. It's not just about shared adversity, comrades through the storm, it is also about shared wealth, shared joy, feeding each other with the good times.
So I wish-- may we all be members of healthy communities of healthy people, balancing our good times and bad, sharing our strength and abundance with one another, lifting each other up with the shared wealth of life. And may we never be afraid of life. And may we come to feel completely worthy of and then fully accept every bit of the love, joy, success, and health that we can gather and enjoy. This life is your birthright. Living it fully is your wonderful gift, and your sacred obligation.
Life, love and laughter to you, my friends.
marys_daughter, who will be teaching a sure-to-be-amazing class for healers, clergy and priest/esses at Casa Chaos, followed by the first bardic circle in a long time, then a work day with various good folk on Sunday, to start the barn renovation/refit as dorm and meeting space, then an evening with family, loves and friends at The Circus! Then my partner's off to teach at Spiralheart camp, and I'm on full-time daddy duty for a couple of weeks.Aside from the huge overload of things to do, I have been feeling energetically like the calm still point at the center of the maelstrom over the past few months. I can feel somewhat perversely guilty for not being in crisis. So many dear friends and loved ones seem to be going through major relationship chaos, family injury and deaths, job or financial angst, community strife and just plain hard times. Despite some shakes (including another cancer scare earlier this month, thankfully all good in the end, but once bitten twice shy) and the usual full range of life experiences, I am incredibly grateful to have received the ease I asked for and worked for with all my might earlier this year. It's not that things are easy, but the near-constant huge shocks and massive upheavals have subsided, allowing me to recover my own sense of balance, grace, place and rightness. I am in the right place, at the right time, doing the right things with the right people. I am in right relationship and right livelihood. I am surrounded by love, abundance, beauty, and life. It really is all good.
No, life is not perfect, far from it. There is always work, and Work. There are still good days and bad, hard decisions to be made, sorrows and disappointments, missteps and aggravations. But, for me, here and now, there is clarity, and health, and ease. And optimism, and faith, and happiness, life-force flowing freely and with joy.
And I will not fear saying it out loud. It always seems so much easier to share bad news than good, out of some kind of morbid fear of bringing down misfortune, or perhaps being seen as glossing over the bad things or not showing proper modesty, since we all know life is hard, right?
I refuse to live in a world where I am afraid of ease, afraid of life, afraid of success or abundance or good fortune, or afraid to share good news. If we can talk about hard times, we should be able to freely talk about goodness, too, without fearing it. There is no Karmic Rule that punishes us when we achieve what we say we desire. In fact, quite the opposite. If we unconciously fear success, if we fear happiness, if we fear abundance or feel unworthy of it, it is so much less likely to manifest in our lives.
And when I am in balance, when I am in a place of strength and happiness, I can be a stronger support for those around me, as they have been a support for me in my times of need. It's not just about shared adversity, comrades through the storm, it is also about shared wealth, shared joy, feeding each other with the good times.
So I wish-- may we all be members of healthy communities of healthy people, balancing our good times and bad, sharing our strength and abundance with one another, lifting each other up with the shared wealth of life. And may we never be afraid of life. And may we come to feel completely worthy of and then fully accept every bit of the love, joy, success, and health that we can gather and enjoy. This life is your birthright. Living it fully is your wonderful gift, and your sacred obligation.
Life, love and laughter to you, my friends.
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Date: 2007-07-19 05:34 pm (UTC)It's a pleasure to be sharing my life with you, and riding with you, through and over and among all of life's scaffolds, facets, waves, summits, and mudpits.
I'm looking forward to more of the same... ;>
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Date: 2007-07-20 06:12 pm (UTC)Hey, that mudpit thing sounds fun. Guess that depends how deep it is...
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Date: 2007-07-20 06:19 pm (UTC)no subject
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Date: 2007-07-19 05:53 pm (UTC)I think you might enjoy it. :)
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Date: 2007-07-24 08:07 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-07-19 06:11 pm (UTC)To ease and happiness! *clink*
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Date: 2007-07-24 08:08 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-07-19 06:15 pm (UTC)enjoy the weekend, it sounds awesome. wish i could be there.
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Date: 2007-07-24 08:09 pm (UTC)no subject
Date: 2007-07-20 06:48 am (UTC)And I am very happy for you that your life is in this positive state right now, bet you enjoy it with every fibre of you.
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Date: 2007-07-24 08:13 pm (UTC)