gratitudes

[chelidon]

First and foremost, I'm grateful for the fact that the medical treatment of the person to whom I am closest in the world seems to be going very well, and she is in good spirits, and has been doing some incredibly deep and powerful magickal work while isolated in the hospital for 48 hours (until the radiation subsides). More on that later, when I get the chance to finish a longer post I've been writing.

I am grateful for the continued swift healing of my son, whose main difficulty at the moment is too much energy and enthusiasm than is wise for his healing body to immediately express. His powers of recuperation and his unflagging spirit are amazing, and wonderful to witness.

I'm grateful for quiet, for the stillness which allows contemplation and reflection and healing, for the balance of inner and outer peace. I just heard a jet fly by close overhead, and I ran outside to stare at it. I heard the rumble of a truck, and went outside to see who was coming down my road (UPS guy with a new 5 ft prybar I'd ordered). I realize that back not too long ago, living in different circumstances, I wouldn't have even noticed either event, they wouldn't have entered my consciousness. I am likewise grateful for the several-hour power outage that happened earlier today, which gave me the good excuse to get the hell out from behind my desk and take a hike along the high-running beautiful stream, and in the lush, green woods, on my way back from walking out to check the mail. I'm grateful for the friend who recently asked me about the stream, reminding me that between all that's been going on and an extra-heavy workload lately, it's actually been weeks since I've given myself the blessing of that simple, and ultimately recharging and grounding walk. It's too easy to get caught up in events and forget or defer the peace which is often to be found right at hand, wherever you are. I'm grateful for remembering to allow time to have time.

I am indescribably grateful for the support of friends and loved ones, given by more people in more ways than I can count, during these last weeks and months. I am grateful for my Lovely Housemates who last night brought me home the terribly good sushi I just had for lunch today. I am grateful for my in-laws who took over the nighttime meds duty for my son after 11pm last night and his care all day today, letting me get a full night's sleep and a good day of work under my belt. I am grateful for my beloved friend and comrade marys_daughter who called last night and listened and observed and supported...and who reminded me that strong, healthy community doesn't just happen -- it's the result of conscious choice, over time, by people who mutually chose to be friends, who choose to take the time to connect, to support, to love one another, to honor and sustain the connections. It's not just a one-way street, and that helps me not to feel so guilty about having needs, or unworthy of receiving support around those needs. I am supremely grateful for each and every individual act of choice by each and every individual person who has been there for my family and I over the past months. And, it's also appropriate for me to acknowledge that part of the reason that strong network of support is there is the years of conscious effort we have put into building a strong, healthy community of people, bonds of caring, friendship and love created and sustained one day, one choice to be connected at a time. Okay, I can own that, while inwardly squirming from issues of need and worth only a little (okay, perhaps more than a little ;>) Thanks for the reminder, sister, and for your relentless and unwavering support.

And thank you to all of you.

Comments

[yezida.livejournal.com]

I am glad things are going well, brother.